Passing Out~

Sooo.. Just remembered now, as I just cut mah wrist faster, but deeper this time.. >.>

And I was starting to get the feelng of passing out. And I remembered.

It happened in grade 7. We [I think it was grades 6 - 8 or something] were supposed to get shots, 2 different dates. One sometime around April, I believe it was. The 2nd in May or June. Anyway..

I've always hated needes. Partially because I've always been given big needles

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-and also because I had one stabbed into both arms fairly hard.. I've hated that dr ever since, and was so glad once we moved, and when we moved back, he'd retired. *sigh of relief*

..So anyway. I was hating the coming day, months before it'd happen. But.. the day finally came.

I sat in my seat most of the school day, irritated, not wanting the needle at all. But- Well, we were called down to the room they'd do it. [Back room of library]. We paired up with others. I paired up with Stephanie. She's-- she's a kewl girl, but she gets emotional easily, and- has a bit of a mental disorder. But she was always fun. So we walked down..Blah blah.

And I sat down in the chair, a little bit of a panic attack starting. I forced it away, and the girl put this needle in. I was like,

"..wtf... i didn't even feel it," and it was

[------------------------------] that long. lol~

Anyway, felt fine. Was cold, lol. But we left the room, smiling, laughing, and started walking back. Down the long hall. As we reached our classroom, I sat. I was fine, but then ... No sooner than 2 minutes later... it started.

I began to feel dizzy, maybe even really drunk. And my head started going down. Blood rushing like crazy. But then everything started to get really blurry, my head nearly dropped onto the desk, and everything was going black. I remember how it felt. I remember, and know what it feels like to "Black Out". My teacher's like,

"Its ok Amber, just 30 more minutes." And I started passing out quickly. Everyone stood up and is like,

"Omg!!" My teacher [Miss Green] called the nurse personnnn or w/e to bring me down to the room I was just at. And... What I will never forget. Kristian. He's has platinum blonde hair, w/ really small, shorttttt curls. And blue eyes, he was always a funny, prank-ful person to be around. His face-- So concerned, so full of worry. Without listening to the teacher, he ran out to me and started walking down the hall with me, and omg.. He attempted to hold my hand! =D

Anyway.. Some of my best friends, even Gage Jacques [I was seriously crushing on him], stood at the door, watching me be brought down the hall in a rolly chair. I was still passing out, everything black, blurry.. But the speed I was going down the hall, the cool air that formed, passing me.. Made me feel a little better. Starting "Coming back to my senses". They had me rest my head on the table, put an ice pack on my neck, and had me hold an ice-filled bag [Freeeezing, but felt good] up to the side of my face, and forehead with another. I couldn't move. The nurses, secretary, etc- tried to contact my mom, but she was working, etc. They finally got contact to her, and after that, I remember being wheeled back down the hall to my classroom [dk why tho] and Kristian was still standing there at the door, hands behind his back. He smiled, almost in relief as he saw me. Came up to me, smiling, put his hand on my shoulder/arm, and said,

"There.. You're colour's back now," ..

Awww!


And then, I remember nothing for a while.

The next thing I remembered was being in the van, at Giant Tiger with my mom, feeling 3/4 asleep. [Still kinda passing out]. She asked if I wanted Ginger Ale. I don't even know why I said yes, because I hate it. But then, she left to go get it. And I blacked out for a few minutes. Hardly remember even coming home..

Was horrible.

And thats it.

And as I say its horrible ...

I strangely want to feel that way again ...


So thats weird, eh?

Anyway, I'ma go. Thanks for reading [Yeah right, NO one does.. ]

x
Kiana