~Updates, Joy, Winter, New Years~

Hello all!

So, how are y'all?! I am well..

Christmas ended up being pretty kewl.. ^^;

I Got:
1) Black/white polka-dot PJ pants
2) A Black shirt [I assume it goes with the pants =) .. ]
3) A Chinese/Japanese torso-kimono and 2 fans
4) A rare and limitd Indian charm bracelet  [There's only about 30 ever made.. Once they're all sold, they're done for good. I'm no. 17!]
5) 2 packs of "hand warmer" things.. black.
6) An expensive gold ring with a light blue heart in the centre, and then a few jewels on either side..
7) Grey Converse! From the top, its dark grey, then fades to white as it goes down to the sole of the shoe.
8) A pair of black gloves, and black/white striped gloves, with the tips of them cut off
9) Around $150 [+ the $60 I got for my birthday]
10) Assassin's Creed II [My awesome brother bought it =D .. ]
11) DEVIL MAY CRY 4!!!!!!!!!
12) ...Shaving cream, razors, toothbrush............. Lol
13) Lindt Chocolate, Toblerone Chocolate, JellyBeans >.<, and Life-Savers...
14) A virtual kiss under a virtual-mistletoe ; )      [Ryan, of course]
15) ...Another hair straightener... [I've had a 2" one for about 3 years, and I got the InStyler for my birthday..And now, another one.. 1" wide one.... But this one'll help for straightener-curls!]
16) 2 books =) ...

<< Hush, Hush // By Becca Fitzpatrick >>




                   << Cresendo // Sequel to Hush, Hush // By Becca Fitzpatrick>> 



So there you have it. Hush, Hush..  and Cresendo. = )

So that's what I got... ^^

~~

Next!

Mm, doesn't this book look good? I just found it on Google...

                                                      

It looks awesome!! So does the guy ; ) ....

Mm... Have you ever heard of the Wizard of Oz.. re-make movie? It's called Tin Man. And it's awesome..

I saw part of it on YouTube, as Ryan was watching it and linking it to me.... But then, after 8 parts, it was done.. And that still about 40 minutes from the movie, so that was helpless.... But now, months later, ITS ON TV. xD

Zero ... aka, "Mystic Man"...AKA The Wizard of Oz!!.......  he looks like my Aunt's dad's fucking CLONE.o.o;

Hmm, Eskidelia [DG 's -----Dorothy Gale----- evil sister] is hoottttttt.......... xD

... I stopped typing that for about 20 minutes. I'm still watching this awesome movie [Its really long.. Like, 3 or 4 hours]

... I need more Coffee. Yes, more coffee!! I need it now!!! >.<

I guess I'll have to wait for this movie to finish.. That should be another good 2 hours... >.>

I love this scene!! When Cane's sleeping in the wagon.. And Glitch is sitting at the end of the bed, and they're both talking. I could make it innuendo in seconds.... x )

Lol, Glitch says something funny when Cane starts drifting off to sleep again...

And then, when Glitch goes all kung fu on the police dudes and Cane's like "Ooooh.... Oh.... "  and then Glitch jumps him against a wall... xDD

... Hmm, we have awesome new Canadian Heritage commercials now.. Aha!! I'm getting a History lesson and enjoying it!! xDD

Sispakway.. Indian for "Sugar".. *o*

So anyway.. I will now go find something to eat [maybe.. I still might wait to go until the movie's done... Even though I'm starving..

HAHAHA, if you watch the Space channel, you're bound to have seen the Star Wars Christmas commercial! Its so funny!!! Darth Vader got fluffy white slippers, and a Stormtrooper got blue/white striped socks... I don't know what the other guy's are called... xDD

So. I am going to go now. I have nothing else to say.

I'll post a blog on New Years Day, or shortly afterwards. I'll be at my dad's .. >.> Ohh joyyyy...... -_- ..........

I REALLY HOPE WE GO OUT FOR SUPPER ON SATURDAY, SINCE ITS NEW YEARS!!! ON NEW YEARS, WE SHOULDN'T BE AT HOME --Or at my Dad's-- DOING NOTHING AND EATING CRAPPY FOOD.. o.o;

So, yep. I shall now go.

Mmm, the smell of oranges in winter around Christmas [even if after Christmas] .. I don't know, it suits it, yet.. I don't know, I'm confused!!

WE HAVE NO FUCKING SNOW HERE... >= (  ....

We have a teeny-tiny bit on the grass/yard.... But barely enough to even cover it.. On Saturday, its raining.. [Oh great...] .. BUT!! Canada's expecting a huge storm.. [Only problem.. It could destroy our country D'=> .... meaning, we could all die... If it gets as bad as the storm in The Day After Tomorrow.... We're dead. No chance on living. O_O;; ....

OMG, I've got an attraction to Cane. It gets stronger each time I see him.. Especially with that black leather outfit, with Glitch...... *¬* .....................

Mm, I have 2 wristbands on my wrists, the black hand-warmer things, both of my rings [each on a ring finger], my indian bracelet~ ..... And I also have a tattoo............. xD Not real..Not yet = P

Its a black heart [thick black outlining], with small black angel wings... And the heart has pinkish-red rimming the inside, then I used a bit of water to smudge it to the centre.. and underneath~ It says "Aishteru". Which means, "I love you".. = )

IT LOOKS REALLY KICKASS, AND REALLY REAL!!! =)

ALRIGHT!!!! i"m going now...

Thanks for Reading!!

If you got to here.................. You're amazing. Because that's aLOTTTT that I typed!

~Kiana

～メリイクリスマス！～ Happy Holidays! [Japanese]

みんな、こんいちわ！　

あ、だから！クリスマスは2日間でです！あなたが興奮していますか？私ではない... = (

"なぜですか？” ... だって。。。。

１）　私が得ている内容を正確に把握。¬_¬；。。。

２）　我々は何をやっていない..

3)   私の義姉妹は、私たちとされます。 ¬_¬

そして、他の多くの理由。。。。

。。だから！日本人ともうたくさんだ！　ｘD


Hm, so, English-viewers... What did I say?


I said:


"Hello, Everyone! Oh- So!! Christmas is in 2 days! Are you excited? ..I'm not. = ( ... "Why?" ... Because... 
1) I know what I'm getting
2) We're not doing anything..
3) My [stupid] stepsister is with us....
-And many other reasons..... So! Enough with the Japanese! xD"


Hmmm- So, yeah. 'Not excited, happy, or enthusiastic for Christmas. = /


~So, today! Aha, I stopped typing this after "And many other reasons". Right after I typed that, I went out for 6 hours xDD


Where? To Wal*Mart, Zellers, Dollarama, Eastgate [huge mall], and The Beer Store.


I went with my eldest brother [he came to pick my other brother and I up] and we went Christmas shopping. Well, Josh was shopping [eldest-brother]... We were just tagging along [and picking something out for ourselves, because Josh didn't know what we wanted xD]


I got Assassin's Creed II. = )


Do you find it odd, that me, the insane Final Fantasy ~Lover... Chose AC2, over Final Fantasy XIII?!?!? o.o;;


Aha, oh well.. I don't really want to play it. I mean, yeah, its super kewl and shit~ But... I don't know. Assassin's Creed appeals more to me, all the time. Though Square Enix makes the best games!!! xD [Mostly]


Hmm.... Something I knew would happen for a long time:


-Stepsister has 7 presents under our tree. 5 huge ones, 1 super huge one, and 1 small one. >.>
...And of course, my brother and I have 2 tiny things. I have an uber-tiny box, and a very small box  specifically for clothing.


1) Its probably something stupid, the wrong size, and/or useless [whatever's in the clothing box]
2) Its probably a gay-ass, cheap necklace or ring or a friggin' gift card [in the tiny box]


Oh!! A rule in a Christmas Gift-Idea Forum!!


"The worst gift to give to your kid is a gift card. Its cheap, its small, and it can make the receiver feel like they're not important or not worth much, since it's such a small and easy gift".. 


~Something similar to that, anyway.


So!! 


I'M GETTING DEVIL MAY CRY 4 FOR CHRISTMAS!!!! =D  !!!


That's one thing I'm uber-excited for.. So then, I get 2 ps3 games- I'm getting a pretty ring from my Grandma / Grandparents.. Only problem~ My grandma refused to get it in the size of my left-hand middle finger. >.> She bought it for the size of my left-hand ring finger............ >= /


Yes, I'm happy about it, and thankful to have it, but I have having rings on that finger, I don't want a ring on that finger [unless I'm married], I'd much more prefer to have the ring for my middle finger, like I've wanted for the past 4 years~ and... The ring I'm getting looks better on my middle finger. >.>


Aw well...... 


So I guess this is the end of this blog-post... T__T


I wish you all a Merry Christmas; and Happy New Year!! ♥




~Kiana

Its My Birthday..... And I'm Crying?

Konnichiwa, minasan.........

So today's my birthday.. 14th Birthday.

And I'm crying. I never slept last night, again [I haven't really slept for the past 2 or 3 weeks..] ..

I started crying like mad earlier, because my "boyfriend" Ryan texted me and was like "*kisses u* Happy Birthday, Amber-channnn!! Daisuki!" .... So I was like "Ooh, yay!"  But then he came online minutes later, and started saying a bunch of uber-sweet things to me, like..

When you take a bouquet of 11 roses and look into a mirror, you're staring at 12 beautiful things.


And

*looks into your eyes* You are always beautiful to me, in my eyes, no matter how you dress, what you choose, or whatever you may turn out to be. I love you..


And this one! ;___;

*hands you a bouquet of roses, 11 real, 1 fake* I will love you 'til the last rose dies.. 


I just started crying like crazy, tears running down my face, at, like.... 100 kph ..........

Not too long ago, I started watching a bunch of sad videos, now I'm watching: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEJfSrIVbmU&feature=related ---and just because of the song, my knowledge of the movie and the point of the video [but mainly the song], I just broke down crying agian!!

Also, knowing that.. My mom and dad are fighting in court, everyone hates each other, my eldest brother hates my mom~ .... And nothing..... nothing.. has been done for my birthday in the past 3 years.

I reminisce, how my brothers', grandpa's, grandma's, stepdad's, uncle's, mom's, whatever-- birthdays were celebrated in a fun way! Like, streamers were put up all around the house, a big cake was bought, happiness was within everyone, and most of my family was here...

But everytime my birthday came around, someone either didn't say a single thing to me, or just said "Happy Birthday, Miss," and then went on with what they normally do everyday.

My mom [what seemed, carelessly-] said "happy early birthday" around 2 am, then went up to bed.. My brother came down to show me his haircut, and to make food, around 3:45 am.. He never said a thing. But then again, he never does..

My stepdad came downstairs, and annoyingly said "Good morning" then went on his laptop..

My dad called and said happy birthday last night~

But mainly, I've only truly been told "Happy Birthday" by online friends!

One, my gay friend "Rune" said Happy Birthday a day or two ago, on DeviantART ... Then Ryan ["boyfriend"] said it.. He gave me a lovely gift, though..

Many virtual hugs, kisses, sweet words, and he, um.... showed me his "something" on camera... O_O

But anyway, it sucks! I've told ALL of my dA contacts Happy Birthday when their birthdays rolled around, but they don't return it? .... >.>"

So yeah! I'm emotional.. I want to go up to my room with my laptop, watch depressing videos, listen to sad music, and cry while hugging a pillow on my bed. I want to cut my wrist again, too! ....

I guess... I'm thinking about my past, what I've lost, and what I've gained.. And how things are..

If someone were to ask me, "Do you like the Present, or would you rather go back to the Past?" ... I'd choose, my Past. My Past was so much better than now......

My parents weren't arguing as much [they've been divorced for 11 years, btw], I didn't have a stepdad with an OBNOXIOUS daughter [Stepdad's not the issue, his stupid daughter is] ... If I go back far enough, I could say-

I lived a normal, happy, cheerful life. I wasn't severely depressed, I wasn't Nocturnal, or Vampiric, or an Insomniac... I wasn't crying over school everyday [The 2nd half of my grade 7 year took place where I live now, in Hamilton, and it was the worst ever.. I had no friends, my teacher was a bitch...etc], I wasn't crying several times a day [or week or month... Around 3 months ago, I used to cry every night]

And you know what? .. I don't know about this, but who fucking cries and mourns on their 14th birthday, while listening to sad music, thinking of a sad past, and looking at a site to join the Canadian Army???

Just kill me now.. I don't care if I won't ever get to drive, ever get to join the army, ever get to go to Japan~ .... I just want to die.... But then I remember that statement:

~When you feel like giving up, just remember why you held on for so long..~  

And I start crying again.....

So, would you do me the honours... And cheer me up, or kill me....?   TT_____TT


[P.S... Not to mention, the fact that my stepdads practically ignoring me --though I don't necessarily mind--, and he's freaking out --swearing-- over the game he's playing]



XxReianxX                       [My emo/2nd alias name]

Going Away!

Yo!

I used to blog things all the time, now I  like.. Never do. WTF is up with 'dat? O_O


Anyway. Yeah! I'm going away. Not very far, not like Japan- ... Just Chatham. Chatham, Ontario. 3 hours away from where I am.

Why? Cuz its my birthday on the 9th [of December] and I'm going to Chatham on the 11th to "celebrate it", aaannddd!! ... To see my best friend!!! = D

I ish so excited. She says "I cannnnnn't wait, KiKi!!" everyday, about me coming to see her. ^^;

So yeah. I'll blog about it when I'm there, 'cause I'll most likely be bringing my laptop with me. Yeah, that's a definite. I'll bring it with me.

I need SOME form of entertainment for 3 hours! Like everyday!!! Except.. we'll be driving/moving, so then, its like.. Epic? o_O

Omg, my stepsister, the 2 year old bratty one who whines a million times a day about the stupidest things? She says "epic" now, because I do. O_O

So! I have not fucking SLEPT in almost 10 days straight. O_O

Thats probably why I've been absolutely freezing for 10 days ... >.>

I think I have insomnia. I can't sleep anymore!

I gradually got worse and worse over a VERY short period of time.

When I was young, I went to bed from either 7 pm - 9 pm. Around the age of 9-12, I went to bed from around 9 pm - 11:30 pm. Then, I started on midnight, then 1, then it alternated between 11 pm - 2 am ..

Then, slowly, 2 - 3 am .. Then 4. Then back to 1. Then back to 4! That alternated for MONTHS.. And then, I started going to bed at 4:30 everynight. Couple months ago, I started going to bed around 1:30, but after a month, it stopped. Then I didnt get to bed 'til 5. Then 6, and 7. Now, I either don't sleep at all anymore, or I dont sleep until fucking... 10 am. >.>

Its realllllyy annoying, that I can't sleep anymore. >.<


But anyway.. I have had alot of Coke in the past week! xDDD

I LOVVVVVVVE Coke. And yaoi!! ♥

Yeah, thats it.

Oh! Check out my videos on YouTube if you haven't already. http://www.youtube.com/777kiana

BTW, I do have Twitter, if you want to follow me. Kiana_777, I think I am on there. ^^

'Later!



X Kiana